Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 12:48 AM

today i learnt:

- i really suck at using my core.
- apparently I HAVE CONTROL. \= is it. i always feel like i'm just whacking my way through.
- my stamina isn't as bad as i'd thought it would be. lol.
- a lot of other NRA people's faces & their names. but i think i forgot already.
- how to walk to studio 16.
- one person can really affect your mood for the rest of the day.

so anyway, first rehearsal today.
wasn't too bad.
deja vu, deja vu.
feels like i'm doing Bryan's item all over again.
hahahaha. must. be. MACHO. (x
but i reaaaaally want to do Lyrical ):
& Jazz.
ROAR.
still, don't know what Ann has in store for freshies.
please, please, please have Lyrical.
PLEASE.

i think i do too much Locking already.
not focusing on Hiphop.
as in, a balanced focus.
i feel like i'm still stuck in this pit-hole.
going nowhere.
i think i need to like
refocus
rethink
rewind a bit.
i had improved, then i dropped back down.
sigh.
howhowhow.

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today i got a reminder
of why i don't like to act friendly
in front of strangers-to-be-acquaintances.
sometimes,
it feels like you're just not worth their time.
which is probably untrue.
but you know.
people assume things on their own.
sad, but true.
i'm jaded of the whole process of
having to make friends.
of sometimes making the effort to step the first move,
but you feel like you're not appreciated.

probably thinking too much.
but unless you have an almost accurate six sense
that can judge almost accurately
the kind of person someone is
(like i can),
you really should. you know.

ah never mind.

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today i also made a new friend.
his name is Ben.
LOL.
BBoy Ben.
not Popper Ben.